Have you lost your mother?

How do I deal w/ mothers death? I just cant believe it.My mom passed away a few weeks ago from a heart attack at 52. We were so close,she was my best friend.I keep myself busy alot.Which I think is good.But ofcourse I have my melt downs.I get angry lately alot,alot of numbness.I cant believe she missed my 20th b-day.Because we discussed what we were going to do on it.Can any of you relate if so how did you deal with it?Have you lost your mother?
My mother went to Heaven quite a few years ago, and thru the grace of God, He has helped me to cope with the loss. All of my parents %26amp; grandparents have passed away. If you have not done so already, please ask Jesus Christ to come into your heart and become your Lord and Savior and by accepting Him, you will find a peace and love that cannot compare. God and His Son are always with you, and there for you to speak to, at any time or anywhere. Please do not ';blame'; your Mom - God has His own ';timing'; for each one of us and when He decides that our life on Earth is over, then we need to accept it - no matter how much it hurts..He will help you to heal :}Have you lost your mother?
my mother isn't dead, but is dead to me. my mother is clinically insane and chooses to not be medicated, and because of this i could never establish a relationship with her. and i have not seen or spoken to her in a year.



to be honest i don't care anymore.